BUBBLY MOMENTS...

U make waking up early easy...
I look forward to seeing you everyday...
U have the perfect smart&yabang combo...
I wish I could get to know you more...
U intimidate me...
I wish you could get to know me...
U make me blush...
I hope I make you smile too...
U really really help me get thru my day!!!

You were there right at the exact moment when i needed something else to make me get up evryday looking forward to something...
I know that this might not get off anywhere but really, I'm just happy with the diversion...
I'm not sure what you think of me, or how you see me...
But seriously... seeing that very cute smile everyday is enough for me...
That's just what I need right now...
:)

BAD DAY...

A few weeks ago, while drinking some deadly albino tequila after a dozen jelo shots, a friend playfully made a prediction that one day this year, i'll get really pissed at work. who would have thought that day would come so soon (actually, i didn't think her predictions would come true at all...hahaha!)

The first time they called my attention, i admitted my mistake and promised to come in earlier. And after that, i really come in the office at 8:30 or 8:45 at the latest. and that in itself is an achievement for me already... i know i'm not yet there, but hey...i'm close to getting there. So, it was royally frustrating when i got called in again for another talk. Apparently, whatever improvement i have made still has no bearing. I still have to kiss some ass! PWEH!!! I don't play that game! I never had...never will!!! I work my ass off everytime im at the office. I provide the best service i could give... and I deserve whatever measly amount of increase i am due for my transfer. Nobody needs to beg on my behalf for me to get it. If they are saying that they'd rather let go of their good people just because of the....FINE!!! I'll be happy to look for another job, it's long overdue anyway! i have already compromised so much for them. It's time for me to fine other things that will make me happier. How or what it is...i still don't know! But I HAVE to do it! I know i have to do it for me...

BREATH...JUST BREATH...

I can't breath...it's so difficult...soooo tiring!!! Now i'm really not fine! I haven't been fine for a while...my life is not fine! This is the reason i take life a day at a time...no long term planning...no over thinking...cause everytime i try and examine it...it's crazy...it's scary...it's damaged! Sooo damaged!!! i don't know if it can even be repaired...if anyone can fix it...can fix me! I can't breath! I am not even sure if i want to...

*if i was drowning...i would have drowned...too bad i don't have a McDreamy to save me... :(